I'm not sure at what point I can say I’m an artist, although I continuously make art I feel weird saying to people 'I'm an artist'
some people feel they need a degree to then say they are one. but I don't need that. I feel I need to make art which I’m happy with, a piece which amazes me like pieces from other great artists has done.
but I haven't had time to contemplate my own art to really see it. instead I see the work I put into it, how I made it and concepts/meanings behind it. I never see the my art for the piece that it is.
I wish I could to then be able to see how good/bad it is and where I can improve. No one is honest enough to do that for me and I’m quite a perfectionist so I’m not sure they’ll have that ability.

I feel that I strive to do better then my last piece, make it better make it look amazing, but sometimes I feel I never get there, then instead it gets worse.
I know I have the potential in myself, all the work I’ve done so far and am making isn't showing that potential. its frustrating people seeing your work and knowing they think its shit and trying to convince them you have that potential.

At the moment I’m on art foundation course at a college (which I wouldn't recommend to anyone, who wants poor organization skills, really crap teachers and office people on power trips who won't open a door because you may steal things? who could ever lift tables down three flights of stairs without being noticed?!)

I'm hoping to get into a certain university which is going to be difficult, interview soon which is very daunting. If I don't get into it I’m not sure what I’ll do.

anyway, i will start to upload more work soon, its just daunting when people can't always see the potential and criticise my work, although i do want negative comments as it helps me to improve i just don't want to be judged as a bad artist.